an event is coming up and yet i'm still having a mixed feelings. i really don't know whether i should be happy or not. i just hope it does not come so soon. i don't want it to be here. but why? me myself also don't know.
why is life so miserable now?
the world that we are living is actually peace, calm and not complicated. it is man whom made it complicate. why do people have to make it so complicated? why can't just have a easy and calm and peaceful life?
the older i get, the more i feel that this world is getting more and more complicated. how i just wish that i could stay young. look at children. they are so happy when they just able to play around. no troubles. and they don't tell lies! unlike adults! children will speak right bottom from their heart. they like it, they will say. but if they don't, they will also speak up. they won't try to harm you, or even lie to you.
i really appreciate of of what you had done for me. but if i really can't be happy on that day. i'm really sorry. i really having this mixed feelings ever since the beginning of july. it is just that i did not say it out. as you are like so enthusiastic about it. i know i should be happy for what you have done for me, but i just can't.
life is really very miserable for me.
i just have a feeling that i can't stay long there. but i really wish to stay there. i feel that i had made a lot of mistakes which i should not be making. and i'm so forgetful. i have been forgetting things. not remembering what i should be remembering. but is not that i want to forget. i really want to remember. but somehow it just got "lost" in my mind. can someone help me? i really want to stay there. i do not want to be posted out. is it because i'm not suppose to be there? that is why i'm having this feeling? :'(
ok. this blog is abit messy for those who don't understand. i'm just being random. trying to say out what i'm feeling now. it is okay that you don't understand. and i think that no one understands me anyway.
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