today is the start of my 2 weeks break of holiday... people maybe sleeping now.. some maybe doing revision for week 11 icas... some preparing for their presentation.. but me?? don't know what i should do.. wanted to sleep.. but.. not feeling tired.. so i came here to blog..
who understand me?? i don't think anybody understand me.. including my family members.. my close friends?? hmm.. i don't think they understand me too.. yes.. i agree that i get frustrated easily and over small matter.. but this is my character.. what can i do?? i'm already trying to change.. why cant they understand me??
feeling depressed?? i don't think so.. not desperate until that.. just feeling upset.. maybe one day i will get depression.. studying for icas is actually not stress.. stress is just an excuse not to study.. and a way to escape from reality..
during my poly life and during attachment.. i found out people are actually not as kind as i thought.. they are like.. i don't know how to say.. but those people who have went for attachment should know what i'm saying.. the feelings.. u are so angry with them.. but u cant do anything.. haiz..
i just dont understand why is this happening to me?? i really hope that i can get happiness and warmth from my family.. people may think that i very fortunate.. whatever i want.. my parents can give it to as long as it is within their means.. but do you think this is really fortunate??? i think that if u are poor.. as long as your family stays together... is really fortunate.. i may appear to have a brother.. but who knows?? i hardly talk to him.. people say that among siblings that we need to share things.. example like camera.. but.. not for us.. i agree to share.. but my brother will be the one who keep on hogging to it.. i hardly see him too.. maybe one day just a glimpse... and thats all..
every family has it's own problem.. i agree.. outsiders will not be able to understand what is going on.. this can be my family problem.. but to someone else.. this is not really a problem.. some family problem is that they facing financial problems... actually to me.. this is only one of the problems in my house.. there are more major problems.. for those who really know me very well.. they will know..
lets don't talk about all these.. this makes people so sad and dishearting.. lets talk about something more happy and interesting...
holiday are here.. people always like holidays.. as we dislike studying and working.. to some people.. holidays are here.. so they can play.. but some.. can go to work to earn some income.. but i think for these 2 weeks of holiday.. i cant really play much as there are icas on week 11.. which means.. right after the 2 weeks of holiday..
what i'm going to say next.. people may envy.. or wad.. that is.. i'm going europe during our september holiday.. and going for around 3 weeks... cool right.. actually i'm very looking for it.. please pardon me if i did not buy anything for you.. coz things is europe is really very expensive.. i may not even my stuff for my relatives.. but i will try to get some small and cheap and cute stuffs back.. but i cant guarantee that i will buy..
hahax.. talk about europe trip.. my friend is more anxious than me.. she has already started thinking what she is going to bring for the europe trip.. this is going to be hilarious.. as she is going to bring a lot of things.. as if that she is moving house.. those who are in the same class as me.. you will know who i'm taking about.. haha.. she say that she is going to bring a straighter.. i think this is very big clue.. and she is going to bring hair spray and tons of stuff..
will tell u all more about the europe trip when i come back... will tell u where i went.. and if possible.. i will show u all the pics...
haha.. cya.. want to sleep now.. :P
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